one last way... to keep you alive.... to keep my promises....

i know what i have to do now......
one last goodbye.

a gift that will make your presence eternal....
never to fade or rusts by passing hours, by time....

i will write you, everything.. anything....
your life, pain, tears, laughs and screams......
everything that i see before they dim out in my memories, all those reasons why i love you,
i'll put them in a bouquet of words beautifully....

so at least i won't just be reminded of fractions of you....
broken down, blurry and unclear

 a decade from now, maybe i can read that book of you and smile....
because then, i'll know you're not just a childish dream, you were a part of who i am.

this is my last greetings, a gift from the deepest part of my heart...
so then my wish to thank you won't burn me down anymore...............

even if i couldn't love you, at least then my one last wish to thank you will be put to life...
and i can put head up high and tell everyone that i really do love you.
and without an ounce of shame, you will be something i can speak of..

kiyuu, thank you.......